I am still here.....

Hey People! I know you thought I was gone but I am still here!!! I have been busy the past couple of weekends so I didn't get a chance to get on here and talk to you!

A couple of weeks ago we went to Monument Valley for our anniversary.....10 years of Holy matrimony! LOVELY!!!! It hasn't been all roses and sunshine I think it is a daily give and take but we are still together 10 years later. WOW who knew. I would have never guessed it, I would have put money on one of us doing time or something... Just kidding!!!:D)

Anyway Monument Valley was amazing, I don't know what was more awesome the views or the stories being told by the guide we had when we went down into the Valley. I was thinking about my dad when we were on our guided tour, I was thinking that he probably would have liked to have seen what we were seeing. BUT my dad is not here now and I wonder if he has traveled through time and space to different places that he perhaps would have liked to have seen when he was living, but didn't get a chance to or couldn't afford to do while he was alive.

Do you believe that when you die your spirit can travel to different places here on earth or even to the moon if that is where you want to go? I wonder. I wonder if you can still visit places and see things when you are no longer in your earthly body? We all know that the body is just a temporary shelter and that when you die your soul and spirit are set free. If you could travel anywhere you wanted to go, where would you go? There are a lot of places that I would love to see while I am yet alive BUT there are some places I do know if I will see, cause 18 hours in a plane just does not appeal to me.....although they do make pills for just such an event. I think we should all take the opportunity to see these United States and then expand out to other places, like Brazil....Jamaica....Africa....France....Italy....Greece....I have a friend who just came back from Italy, I think it would be interesting to see other cultures and experience their food, their sports and how they live....where would you go if you could go anywhere you wanted to go????

Travel safely.....

See ya when I see ya!

Peace! Mattie

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

Hey People! How are you doing?

I was thinking all day what could I blog about today since it is Mother's Day....I was thinking about the different kinds of mothers people have, good mothers, bad mothers, indifferent mothers, mothers who are no longer here and those mothers who have checked out and left their kids to fend for themselves. AND now-a-days there are fathers who are taking on the role of mothers. Interesting times we are in....BUT right now I am going to go out on a limb and tell a story of a friend of mine who is a mother, and who asked me when she was pregnant if I would be her coach for the birth, and she allowed me to be there when her child was born. AWESOME! I don't have any children so this was the closest I was coming to experiencing this truly BLESSED event. This is how the story goes.....

SO my friend comes to me and she says to me very timidly, "I am pregnant". Dead silence, then I say to her THAT'S GREAT! I think, do you want to be pregnant? OF COURSE! Cool... SO her pregnancy progresses and as time goes on she calls me and she says she is taking birthing classes and she needs a coach. I said SURE I would be happy to be the coach. We start the classes and they are typical classes that everyone has heard about....they teach you to breathe, and to focus and what to expect when you are in the delivery room. Well let's just say that things did not happen in our delivery room like most people. At least I am assuming this is the case since I have never been in a delivery room before I am pretty sure this is not what usually goes on. BUT back to the classes...during one of the classes the instructor tells us that the coaches, are responsible for keeping the mother comfortable and calm and as relaxed as possible, so that she can stay focused on her peaceful place and pushing. RIGHT! So part of doing this is taking a sock that is filled with tennis balls and rubbing them up and down on the back of the mother, sort of massaging her, or rubbing their legs or rubbing whatever is bothering them. I look at my friend and she looks at me and we say at the same time, "I am not touching you like that..." and she is saying "you ain't touching me like that..." and we both start laughing! Classes were cool and the information was good, but it turns out I didn't need any of it. Then the time comes for the baby to be born....

I get a call one morning from my friend's mother, and she tells me they are at the hospital and it is time for me to come over. I get there and go in and my friend is hooked up to these machines monitoring her pressure, heart rate and her contractions. My friend is asleep...I think this is kind of strange since she is having contractions according to the monitors. I asked her mom what was going on and she told me that they have been in and out of the hospital all night and that my friend is just worn out! WOW! So my friend wakes up and she looks at me and she says, "I feel like I have to push get the nurse...." I go out the room and tell the nurse that she wants to push and the nurse says "well we'll just see about that sometimes they think that but its not time." The nurse comes in and she lifts the sheet up...she doesn't say anything but the look on her face says..."OH SHIT!" She goes out of the room in a hurry and then there is a flurry of activity, the doctor comes in and everybody is moving fast but it seems to be slow motion. My friend's mom is in the room and she is trying to get out but there is no time for that now she is stuck in the room for the birth of her grandchild. COOL!

My friend starts pushing we do the count and she lays back down....waiting for the next contraction and the next time to push. I am wiping her forehead and giving her ice chips so I am not really paying attention to what is going on...until I try to give her the ice chips and I notice she is asleep. I look at her mom and I said she is sleeping in the middle of her delivery she is asleep...who does that?! Turns out that my friend had come down with a bronchitis just prior to going into labor. Since she was coughing so much the doctors had told her that the hard coughing was causing her to have contractions, but she was not really in labor. They gave her some cough medicine with codeine to calm the cough and easy the pain. They also gave her some other kind of pills or medicine to stop the contractions and sent her home, only for her to come back later that night with the same pain and coughing. When they finally decided she was in labor they gave her MORE medicine for the labor pains.

Now my friend is in labor and this is how the labor goes... contraction hits...she WAKES UP sits up and pushes for the count and then falls back and goes to SLEEP! Contraction hits....she WAKES UP sits up pushes and then falls back and goes to SLEEP! She basically slept through the delivery. I was always told that labor was the most incredible pain you could ever experience, NO MAN would live through it, and some women die during it....but my friend would sleep. Now granted she was drugged up with the different medicines they had given her, but it was just unbelievable to me that she could sleep through this....WOW! It was the most incredible thing I have ever seen, to witness the birth of a child. I was trying my best not to look but the doctor had glasses on and you could see the whole thing in his glasses. INCREDIBLE! A little baby girl was born....eighteen years ago and now she is graduating from high school. CONGRATULATIONS mom! Congratulations baby girl!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!


See ya when I see ya!Peace! Mattie

Just wondering.....where are we going....

Hey People! I am getting on a roll here this makes three in row and you know the saying, 'third time is a charm'!!!! We will see if that is the case here....

SO I was talking to this lady where I work and I said to her, 'you know this is going to offend you in so many ways but are you Navajo?' She is Native American and her tribe is Navajo. Now don't get me wrong the fact that the person I was talking to is Navajo was not offensive, I just thought the question would be offensive as most people don't like to discuss their heritage. I was hanging up a Navajo rug in my cubicle area and I wanted to confirm what I was told about the design on the rug. I asked was this symbol or design that of family? I told her that's what I was told when I bought the rug from this man who was selling it for his daughter who was trying to raise money for graduation. The lady told me she believed it was but she she couldn't say for sure. Then she said to me, "I should know more about my heritage but I don't, my grandma tried to teach us weaving and things like that but we would sit there for an hour and then we would take off. We didn't want to learn we just wanted to play outside and run around. I don't even know how to speak the language." She went on to tell me that each rug is different because the concept and design of the rug is what you the weaver create in your mind, you have to see the rug as you are making it and that's why no two are the same. WOW! I didn't know that, but that does explain why they are so different, and makes you wonder when you look at them how did they come up with that. I told her don't feel bad about not knowing your heritage, I am not that sure of mine. I am hoping Africa is in there somewhere and I have no doubt there is some White people in there as well. Sadly, there are a lot of things that should be passed down from generation to generation, that is falling by the way side, kids don't want to learn and parents don't have time to teach.

My mom won't teach me how to cook she says she doesn't use recipes, she does everything by taste and feel, so she can't write anything down for me AND she gets mad when I ask her to. SAD that things like your native language, cultural cooking and family stories aren't being passed onto the next generation. I am pretty sure there are some who will think this is a good thing and some who are fearful that we are slowing 'blending' into a melting pot of people of whose national origin you cannot differentiate. This could be a good thing or it could be a bad thing....GOOD that finally people are being seen as people and not Black people or White people, etc. but just PEOPLE! But the bad thing would be what is lost along the way like 'southern cooking', weaving baskets and rugs, making pasta and sauces, braiding hair and story telling.

We are all in such a hurry these days to get to where we are going....but I was just wondering...where are we going??!!!!

See ya when I see ya!

Peace! Mattie

Well here is the second one....HAPPY EASTER

Hello People!

Happy Easter Sunday to you and yours. I hope you went out and enjoyed this day and got your fill of eggs, candy and those nasty little 'Peeps'. What is that really concentrated sugar wrapped in more sugar???? I don't get it. No offense to the makers of Peeps...I just don't get it.

SO how has everyone been lately....strange weather we have been having lately...tornadoes in St. Louis what is that about. I went to Washington, DC a couple of weeks ago and it was rainy and cold everyday then the day before me and my friends left it was 90 degree! Previous temperatures had been in the 50s. WTH! We got some gale force winds going on in Arizona, we are talking hold on to your hats and skirts, if you don't you could be chasing them both down the street.

Anyway...I was talking to a friend of mine...actually I was listening she was doing the talking and even when I tried to interject to be apart of the conversation I was talked over. It is interesting that some people like to, or in some cases, NEED to complain about things and point out how "they' did this to me and "they' did that to me...and you know "they" don't want you to have nothing! THEY. Who the hell is they! There comes a time in your life when you have to stand up for what you believe in no matter what THEY say! Whoever 'they' may be, you have to do you, if you don't stand up for yourself and what you believe in then nobody else will. I try to stay away from using the word THEY unless I don't want to hurt someone's feelings and then 'they' may creep into the conversation, otherwise names will be used regardless of the outcome. It seems 'they' become the scapegoat for everything that is wrong, could go wrong or even might go wrong. You know they said you couldn't come in here, that you didn't belong. They said you were not good enough to be apart of the group so they voted you out. They are always looking at me funny like they don't like me, or like they don't want me around. Boy those 'theys' are pretty powerful people or entities or whatever THEY may be. BUT not really they are only as powerful as you let them be. NO ONE or nothing should have that much control over your life and how you live it, to the point that they can dictate how you live. I can't go in there cause 'they don't like me. I can't say anything cause 'they' can hear me and then they will get mad. SERIOUSLY! Get the they's out of your vocabulary start standing up for yourself and what you believe in, and watch what THEY do then.

Until the next time!

See ya when I see ya!

Peace! Mattie

WOW! You Just Never Know...

Hello People!

How the heck are you doing? It has been a while since I have been on here almost a year to the date that I was last on. I see the last posting is dated April 23, 2010. SO here I am again and I plan on making it a weekly blog if not more. I gotta get my writing juices flowing again so I can get my book done. I made some goals as part of the neighborhood group that I am a part of, I have a 1 year goal to get back into shape....wearing size 40 pants in MEN'S pants because women's aren't long enough is NOT a good look. Trust me! The even sadder part is that the size 40 is not really fitting that well. ANYWAY my 18 month goal is to get the book done or at least a first draft done. The longest goal is 5 years and that goal for me is to still be employed by the same employer as I have now. This probably seems like a 'duh' goal for most of you but for me it is a goal that I have set and have every intention of keeping. Usually when it comes to jobs I will keep them until I get bored or until someone pisses me off, which is more likely the case, and then I say 'kick rock...deuces! I am out!!!!' Not a very mature thing to do but my justification for it is that I can always go home. That is what I said when I was younger and someone annoyed me on the job I would just say....I ain't got to take this I can go home! My parents are still alive and I can just go home I ain't got to be here!!! Now I am older and married and I would think when annoyed or pissed...are you kidding me! 'My man has money!'....Well I have matured since then and now REALITY has set in that I am getting older and the old man is really OLD and it is time to grow up. SO 5 years at a job would be actually a first for me. SAD isn't it?!

ANYWAY...I was just getting the laptop out and trying to find the password and what not to access this blog and I was thinking what am I going to blog about. I want to boast of the best part of my Washington, DC trip but then I thought no one would want to read that. BUT then I got this call from this lady I work with she is a nice lady and we have developed a sort of unspoken language when it comes to work. We just look at each other and smile or laugh no words needed....but I digress... she called me when I was trying to decide what to blog about and she said "I just wanted to tell you that I am getting baptized tomorrow at church after the second service, and since you are the one who lead me to the church in the first place I thought you should know." WOW! You just never know...Well I was overwhelmed with that comment...how exciting she is giving her life to Christ!!! YOU GO GIRL!!! You will not be disappointed and you will NEVER be alone!!! So that to me was just a confirmation that I should tell you what I was thinking in the first place.

When we were in Washington, DC my friends (the ladies night group plus one or two new ones) I was traveling with starting giving me a hard time, which they usually do, but it was really early in the morning and I was not ready to be harassed yet. I got out my phone and I get this daily Bible verse and the verse for that day said, 'forgive one another as I have forgiven you be humble and kind and slow to anger' maybe something about love thrown in...that is not exactly how it read but it is my paraphrase. I said to my friends see God just saved your life...the Bible just saved your life right now cause God said to show nothing but love for you! And I read them the verse, after I read my Bible verse one of my friends says, 'well I read the Laws of Attraction, and it says...' Now I can't actually tell you what it said because I didn't understand it when she read it and I don't think the rest of them did either because she had to explain it to us. Several times at length... when she was done I said well you see the Bible doesn't need any explanation it says what it says, it is plain and simple. It is plain and simple it says what it says and it is simple to understand. Read it for yourself make your own decision. I hope you find it to be an easy read, easy to understand and hopefully lead you to the point where my co-worker is now, ready to be baptized and develop a relationship with someone (Jesus Christ) who will stick closer to her than any friend, sister or brother. P.S. actual verse(s) Ephesians 4:31-32.

Now that I said that let me just tell you all that are thinking this is going to be a 'Christian' blog... a Christian is writing this blog but I am not going to hesitate to speak my mind and at times that may not come out as Christ would have said it. SO don't try to put me or my blog in a category it is what it is and it's just Mattie!

See ya when I see ya!

Peace! Mattie

Mattie is walking for a cure....

HEY! Everybody...Mattie is walking for a cure to breast cancer! What are you doing????

Visit my website and follow my progress at:

http://www.the3day.org/site/TR/2010/ArizonaEvent2010?px=5096758&pg=personal&fr_id=1460


See ya when I see ya!Peace! Mattie

The Wild...Wild... West...

SO hello people! How are you doing? I hope this blog finds you well....Spring is in the air, unless you are up north in which case snow is in the air, but we need the moisture right? What has everybody been up to? Shaking off the winter and getting ready for summer I am sure. How many are on diets to lose the winter midsection that you got while being cooped up in the house and eating your weight in chocolate and cookies during the holidays???? Don't worry I am right there with ya....SAD!!!

So let me tell you this little story of an incident that happened to me over the weekend.

I live out in B.F.E. and my closest neighbor is a half mile to a mile away. We have signs posted no trespassing and we have been informed by the Sheriff that if we have any problems we should "take care of it" ourselves and he will deal with the aftermath when he gets here. NOW don't get it twisted the man did not say reenact Clint Eastwood's make my day scene, BUT he just let us know that in all likelihood if we don't take care of it by the time he gets here it could be an ugly situation. Now that I have set the stage here is the story:

SO last Saturday I get up and me and my sister come downstairs and I see out the window that a man is standing at our fence starring....Just standing there starring I don't know what he is looking at and I am like OH SHIT this is going to be some make my day kind of stuff! Gary was gone down to Cottonwood for a, yeah you guessed it, tractor show so it was just me and my sister. I take my sister into the living room and I tell her to stay there and be quiet. She does, for a while then she starts choking on some water so I have to rush in there and help her. Her eyes are all big and she is looking like what the hell just happened I was doing my normal thing where I take a mouth full of water and gargle with it and all of a sudden there is water going down the front of my shirt on the floor and I can't breathe! I calm her down and I go back to the window and look out...the man is still there, still looking and just weird! I call Gary and tell him that the man we saw driving around lost the day before is back and he is standing at the fence starring at the house. I try to use the binoculars but my eyes don't work with binoculars and I can't see shit in 3-D either, but that is another story. I say to GARY THAT MAN IN THE TRUCK IS BACK AND HE IS LOOKING AT THE HOUSE STANDING BY THE FENCE! Insert concerned voice that is almost high pitched and squealing. Gary says, "well what is he doing?" I said he is just standing at the fence looking at the house and I don't know how long he has been there the dogs are barking and when I came downstairs he was there. Gary says, "well he will 'probably' go away after awhile. So anyway I saw this tractor and it's only $1200.00 for it and I could use the tires off of it and maybe sell the rest for parts. Gary (our neighbor) has already bought some stuff. They also have these rollers that you put under those oil cans I have, you know what I talking about? I want those rollers but I don't want the oil cans, I wonder if the man will sell them to me without the cans, cause I don't want the cans...." WTH! GARY!!!! What are you talking about?! I just told you there is a MAN at the fence looking at the house and you are talking about tractors, oil cans and wheels....what the hell is wrong with you. Gary says, "well I don't know what to do 'why don't you go find out what he wants'..." Right! Like that is going to happen. I said you know what Gary I have to go I am going to call Copper to come over here and take care of this...Gary says, "well I told you he would probably leave after awhile...the cop is not going to come." Needless to say I hung up on Gary! SERIOUSLY! THERE IS A MAN AT THE FENCE AND YOU TALKING ABOUT TRACTORS! SERIOUSLY....SERIOUSLY!!

SO I call Copper and I say there is a man at my house standing out at the fence he was there when I came downstairs, I don't know who he is, I don't know how long he's been there and Gary is not here. The COP says, "I'll be right there!!!!" BOOM! Appropriate response, no tractor talk, no mention of oil cans and rollers, just I'll be right there! Gary calls back and I tell him that I called Copper and he is coming and the guys is STILL THERE! He says well then the cop will take care of it...and he starts talking about the stuff at the tractor show again...I said WHAT IS TAKING COPPER SO LONG! He lives around the corner (granted it is a mile around the corner but still....)Gary says it always seems longer when you are waiting...I look at the phone and I say why are you calling me? He says I was just checking to see if the guy was still there. YES he is still there and he is going to back to his truck to get something.... I can't see what he has he is holding up something. WHERE IS THE COP! I hang up the phone again cause I am about to call Copper again and the guy walks over to the gate does something at the gate, WTH! Oh shit now I have to get the gun. Then he walks back to the fence looks one last time and starts to get in his truck. WHERE IS THE COP!!!! The guy starts to drive away and as he does the cop drives up...they eye each other and the cop pulls in the drive gets out opens the gate. The man drives on. I run outside and I ask the cop WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG! Copper says, "I got his license plate number, do you know that guy?" I say no I don't, then he hands me a note that the guy had stuck to the fence.

I open the note and look at it. I look at the cop and say it is somebody looking for Gary, he says okay. Then he says does the sheriff come out here at all and I told him NO! The sheriff told Gary that if something happened to take care of it ourselves and he would deal with it when he got here. See we live in the county so technically the cop has no jurisdiction out here since he is a "City" cop and this is not the city it is the Wild... Wild... West! As the cop leaves I go back into the house and I catch my breathe and read the note, which reads as follows:

"03-20-10 Good morning Gary, I was given your name by Tim Baker that you deal w/8N tractors and I am needing a carb. for mine. My name is Pablo and my # is --------. Please give me a call if you parts for an 8N 1948-52 Carb Part #8N9510C. Thank you." Are you freakin' kidding me!!!! I am trying to psyche myself into shooting you if I have to and you want tractor parts.....

I knew those freakin' tractors were going to be trouble as soon as Gary started collecting them. The irony here....Gary only collects tractors he doesn't sell them or sell the parts! Go figure! He has six that is right 6 tractors. HELP ME!

See ya when I see ya!

Peace! Mattie

I thought they put a law in place,,,,

Hello People! How are you all doing? I hope this blog finds you well and that you are safe and most of all WARM! It is still snowing here and we are almost into March...freakin' groundhog seeing his shadow! I am so looking forward to SPRING!!!!

SO what has everybody been up to? I know this weather has been CRAZY for everyone in these United States, it doesn't matter where you live it is hitting us all...

I just came back from a trip to the southeast coast over in Florida! Daytona 500 it is a must see in person. The track is old and they don't have vendors walking up and down the isles like they do in Phoenix and Vegas BUT it is a nice track! Also you can BYOB in Daytona which I have never seen at any track before. ANYWAY....

the trip started out WRONG which should of been a clue then of what was to come. We flew out on US Airways and on the flight back we flew on United. TALK ABOUT ATTITUDE! Their so called customer service reps (ticket agents and gate people) are remarkable! Trust me that is sarcasm....they act like they are doing you a favor by allowing you to fly on there airline. NOT! United airlines policy is and I quote "we sell out the back of the plane first then we start moving forward and increase the price of the ticket." Gary and I had two different seats on the first part of the flight back and a layover in Denver...we asked if we could get different seats together, preferably isle seats, and close to each other since we were six (6) rows apart AND stuck in the middle. The 'ticket agent' said 'yes I can put you two together for an additional $49.00 each. See we have seats that have better leg room that you can purchase for an additional $49.00 each..." I know it was early in the morning but apparently she had been sipping on gin and juice if she thought that was actually a viable option! She said it with a straight face and a smile too...yeah she was seriously demented if she thought we were going to pay additional money on top of what we had already paid to fly in the first place, PLUS the $40.00 bucks they charged us to put our luggage on the plane! Who flies without luggage? SERIOUSLY! Then she says we could check at the gate and see if they showed anything different BUT the flight was full. I said what we can do is choose not to fly your airline again!!! She said well yes you do have a choice and I said yes and I choose not to fly with you again! I am sure that she put a flag on our names because little Miss Sunshine at the gate was SO helpful...she said she would put our names on a list and call if something changed. THEN she proceeded to call every stand-by person she could find (I think she even went out and was recruiting people waiting at other gates) and put them on the plane AND if they were a couple guess what???? YUP they were seated together in better seats! Yeah believe me when I say DO NOT FLY UNITED AIRLINES! THEN of course if you want to eat or drink on their airline it is also an additional costs and they take credit cards only! All I can say is that I am thankful that happened on the way home 'cause seriously! That is no way to start a vacation!!! It is no way to end a vacation either but they pretty much have you by the proverbial nuts at that point. You know what I mean?!

BUT speaking of the start of the vacation...we flew out on US Airways...what a lovely airline! NOT! We get to the airport and I have on 'layers' of clothes...so we stand in line for the security people and they are just a joy aren't they?! Yeah right! As I go to walk through the metal detector machine they tell me I have to take off my sweatshirt. WTF?! My choices were to either, take off the sweatshirt or, be patted down by one of the TSA agents. Well that just sounds like LOADS OF FUN doesn't it?! SO I am standing in the middle of the airport trying to take off my sweatshirt without my undershirt coming up with it. JOY and RAPTURE! I walk through the detector collect ALL my clothes, shoes, purse, etc. and then we start off for the gate. We get there just before they start loading so we don't get anything to eat or drink. We get on the plane and there is some kind of trouble with the computer or something so even though we are ON the plane we are not going anywhere. We wait..and we wait...and we wait...a half hour goes bye-bye...then an hour...still waiting....and I am thinking didn't they put a law in place that says they are not allowed to keep you on a plane for an indefinite amount of time? TWO HOURS LATER we finally get pushed back from the gate to start the flight. After we take off the charming waitresses...I mean stewardesses start coming through with the beverages and 'food'. WELL they had drinks anyway...you know how they start at the front of the plane and work their way back??? Well they got to about the middle of the plane and THEY RAN OUT OF FOOD! Can you say riot?! There was about to be one one that plane. I asked the waitress/stewardess, whatever, how is it possible for the to be out of food when we just took off and you have only gotten to half the plane? As I was asking her this question the lady next to me and the man behind me are yelling over me at the waitress/stewardess and she has her head down and is trying to explain. She says, "I am really sorry about this but we don't usually put food on the plane to equal the passengers we put a percentage based on the passengers...I am sorry." I said are kidding me, you have a FULL FLIGHT and you don't put food on the plane to feed each passenger, especially AFTER WE HAVE BEEN SITTING ON HERE FOR TWO HOURS! You had plenty of time to get more food put on the plane based on the SITUATION forget about the percentage! "I know I am sorry and I am doing the best I can we have never had this happen before, I am shaking...." Gee I guess we should feel sorry for her...but that is not the sentiment of the people on the plane... especially the man behind me with the wife and three (3) kids! Oh did I mention that US Airways charged us $54.00 to put our luggage on the plane? Yeah they did!

Since we sat on the tarmac for TWO (2) hours that made our flight get into Orlando two hours late which meant we missed our shuttle and gave my friend two more hours of drinking ,which of course made her unable to drive, which costs us an additional $35.00 to be taken from Daytona to New Smyrna Beach....I hate US Airways and UNITED! Seriously they suck!

BUT the bright spot of the whole thing....Jr. came in second and he came out of nowhere! It was GREAT! AND they did have some crashes..nobody went end over end or upside down but there were some pile ups, which is why most people go to the races anyway!!!:P)

See ya when I see ya!

Peace! Mattie

Funny how you think you have it bad....

Hello People! Long time no 'see'... how is every little thing with you? I hope this blog finds you well as can be in your circumstance. I must admit I could complain, actually I have tried to complain but every time I do that I always find out that my complaints fail in comparison to someone else.

It's funny how when you think you have it bad you find out someone else has it worst. What is that saying misery loves company? I seriously doubt it! Whether it's a little worst or a lot worst, someone else is always worst off than you thought you were. I was thinking "oh poor me, I don't have a job or money, blah blah blah"! My violin was getting a lot of use, if you know what I mean... THEN I heard about a friend whose house was broken into and their belongings stolen including Christmas gifts...can you imagine the trauma of that? You wake up thinking this is going to be a good day. You go off to do your daily routine and then you come home...a place you once felt safe and secure in...and find your door has been broken open...your things are missing! Someone has been in your house while you were not there and they have gone through your things your personal, private things....what did they do while they were in there? How long were they in there? Did anybody see them in there? What did they touch while they were in there? What else did they do beside take all they could carry? Security is now luxury you don't have it is a thing of the past and you try to fend off paranoia. WHAT'S THAT? WHO'S THERE?! Crazy its just the wind blowing and your cat moving around stealth like in the middle of the night as they usually do. But your mind plays tricks on you now every sound is magnified every shadow is the 'robbers' coming back for more...will you be able to truly rest in this house anymore? It is a house now...no longer feels like a home in the true sense of the word now does it? Will your stolen stuff be found...probably not.... BUT your one consolation here is that neither you nor your family members were home so no one was hurt or worst. Property can be replaced, the uneasy feeling you have will eventually subside and life will go on as 'normal'. AND yes although things seem bad for you believe it or not someone else has it worst. Sad isn't it, that even in this circumstance there is someone else who has it worst than you!

I was feeling sorry for myself about being unemployed and not being able to shop when I want to and pay ridiculous prices for sunglasses or shoes 'just cause'...but in the grand scheme of things compared to my friend and others who not only are unemployed but also homeless and hungry...my situation??? Is that really something to feel sorry about?

See ya when I see ya!

Peace! Mattie

Let it snow....NOT!

Hello People! How are you doing? I hope everything is fine with you and yours. It has been a while since I was on here. I THOUGHT I was going to be blogging more because my mom retired and I don't have a job so that means we would spending time with each other...which interprets into LOTS of stories! BUT it took her retirement a while to kick in and then it started snowing! It has been snowing more than usual for this time of year for this area lately. AMAZINGLY this is more like the snow storms I remember when I was growing up and we never got a snow day! BUT that is another story and me and my friends have had heated discussions on the whimpiness of the school district...oh I am sorry I mean the cautiousness of the school district.

ANYWAY since I have been stuck in the house since last Saturday it is starting to wear on my nerves and my patience. You know when you are around someone for a continuously LONG period of time even though you love them, they eventually become not so cute anymore. Every little sound they make, like breathing, becomes a complete annoyance and you just want to yell WHY ARE YOU DOING THAT?! Of course they will say doing what? And your only response is that breathing in and out...STOP IT! But we are civilized people and we can't do that. SO we sit in silence mostly each jockeying for time on the coveted computer and hoping that the satellite service that operates the Internet doesn't go out because the dish is covered with snow! You think your time on the computer is more important than theirs even if you are only playing games and annoying people on facebook, that is more important than them sitting mindlessly in front of the computer looking at eBay contemplating things to buy. THEN they opt not to buy and you have to listen to them lament about how they should have bought the stupid oil can for $20.00 or the asinine gas pump handle with the buy it now price of $19.99 plus shipping because it is a rare find. BUT they don't buy it and you have to pretend to care that they are now in the throws of a fit because they thought the price would go higher but somebody bought it for $9.99! HELP ME! BUT wait there's more! Then you have things to do which you in an effort to 'share' tell them about and then they become obsessed with your chores. "Did you do your homework yet? You know you need to do your homework. You should get up right now and do your homework!" And you say...you know you should......actually you don't say anything you just have conversations in your head about not sharing anymore because it just eventually gets used against you in the end!

ANYWAY... the sun is shinning today and although your mom previously forbid you to come to town with her "baby" in this bad weather, she calls you around noon and says "You know y'all could have came to town today." Are you kidding me?! "I am sure you guys could use some time out of the house, you have been stuck in there for a while now." REALLY?! At this point you just slump down in your chair and wonder why do you listen to your mother? I am 45 years old, married and taking care of my handicapped sister and I still listen to my mom because why? I'm getting old and I want to go to heaven. (Just kidding. I mean I do want to go to heaven but that is not why I listen to my mom. I listen to her because she is scary!) Bright note mom said that tomorrow we could probably make it in to town and just for something to do we could do some cooking or something. YAY! Oh wait tomorrow the BIG storm is suppose to hit! ....Oh well back to jockeying for the computer, sitting in silence and pretending to care....I guess we are stuck here until....

I hope you all are staying warm, safe and most importantly BLESSED!

See ya when I see ya!

Peace! Mattie